My laziness or is it lack of ambition?

 

She’s fierce, right?  She is my logo for the review site, Harlie’s Books.  I love her and she is me when it comes to reviewing.  Not so much when it comes to writing.

Let me back a moment.  I wrote a book.  Yes, I really did and the dozen or so people that read it and loved it.  I never made any money on it nor did I achieve any kind of ranking on Amazon.  But I was proud that I did something that a ton of people have never done or will do in their lifetime.  I published a book.  No one can take that away from me.  But what happened after that book was published is something that I want to talk about.

I thought more people would read it.  I toured with it and got really good feedback but no sales.  In fact, some people in the publishing world were downright cruel to me.  “Stick to reviewing.  You don’t know how to write a book.”  That was the nicest thing that I can put here.  Plus, it didn’t help that most of my blogger “so-called” friends supported me.  I had one blogger that did and actually liked the book.  I still support her to this day.  The others?  What can I say?  Not so much.  Of course, two of them are best-selling authors now.  I supported them in the beginning but I got absolutely NOTHING in return.  Hell, I didn’t even get an acknowledgment but that’s another blog, for another time.

The crit group I was in is/was awesome!  I can not say enough about them.  Helpful, encouraging and kind.  So why did I stop submitting things to them?  Honestly, life got in the way.  Moving, loneliness, anxiety from the move, money issues, and then still having to learn how to live with diabetes.  Plus, we realized that I needed to work outside the home and finding a job in a small town is NOT easy.  So, I decided to substitute teach in our school district.  I work almost every day of the school year now.  When I get home, I still have the house, husband, and kid.  I realize that other people have bigger problems that I have and they STILL write.  It’s a passion for them.  Not so much for me, I’m guessing.  I can’t make myself sit down and type the words.  If I have any time left in the day, I’m reading.  It’s how I relax.  Writing is NOT relaxing to me.  It’s anxiety to the max for me.

I could be jealous of my old crit partners, Anne Lange and Elle Boon for their huge success but I’m not.  They had the drive to write and the passion to do it.  I do, however, miss talking to them.  I miss my bestie, Krista Ames, too.  Now that she is writing in box sets, I never talk to her anymore.  Life has taken us in two different directions.  I love that she is successful now.  No one deserves it more.

So as I wait for the results of a writing contest that I entered, I have to ask myself this question…what happens if I place?  Eek!  I never thought passed just having the courage to submitting to the contest.  The reality is that if I’m asked to finish the story, I’m not sure if I can or will.  I work almost every day now and while the review site is slow, I’m still dead tired when I come home.  I actually like to spend time with my family and be able to do things on the weekend and not be tied to a deadline.

Does this make me lazy or do have just have no ambition to write?  Sure, I write reviews but I’m not paid for those.  Oh, wait…I never got paid for that book I wrote either.

I don’t need advice.  Just wanted to share my thoughts.

I will let you know if I place or not.  Honestly, I can’t wait for the feedback.  Placing would be a bonus.

 

 

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Author Spotlight featuring Andrew Grey’s Ebb and Flow (Love’s Charter #2) w/a rafflecopter giveaway& excerpt! @andrewgreybooks

Title: Ebb and Flow

Author: Andrew Grey

Series: Love’s Charter (Book 2)

Genre:  M/M Contemporary Romance

Publisher: Dreamspinner Press 

Release Date: Aug 18 2017

Edition/Formats Available In: eBook & Print

 

Blurb/Synopsis:

To achieve happiness, they’ll have to find the courage to be their own men. As first mate  in a charter fishing boat, Billy Ray meets a lot of people, but not one of them has made him as uncomfortable as Skippy—because he’s drawn to Skippy as surely as the moon pulls the tides, and he’s almost as powerless to resist. Billy Ray has spent his life denying who he is to avoid the wrath of his religious father, and he can’t allow anyone to see through his carefully built façade.

Skippy is only in town on business and will have to return to Boston once he’s through. But he doesn’t count on Billy Ray capturing his attention and touching his heart. After all, his father has certain expectations, and one of them is not him staying in Florida.
Billy Ray doesn’t realize just how much he and Skippy have in common, though. They’re both living to please their fathers instead of following their own dreams—a fact that becomes painfully obvious when they get to know each other and realize how much joy they’ve denied themselves. While they can’t change the past, they can begin a future together and make up for lost time—as long as they’re willing to face the consequences of charting their own course.

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Skippy stood and wandered to the back of the boat while this was going on, looking toward the shore in the distance. He heard Billy Ray coming closer and stepped aside so he could drop the trap into the water. As Billy Ray leaned against the side of the boat, a larger wave than the gentle ones they’d been enjoying lurched the boat. The trap went into the water, and Skippy tipped toward the side of the boat, taking a single step. He would have been fine, but the boat rolled once again, further unbalancing him, and Skippy knew he was going to get wet at any second.

A strong arm caught his waist and pulled him back. The boat rocked hard once more, this time sending them both the other way, and they ended up on the deck in a heap, with Billy Ray on top of him.

“Are you okay?” Billy Ray asked as he practically jumped away. “You… you were about to fall overboard and I grabbed you and….” Somehow he’d turned even redder as he clambered to his feet.

“I’m okay….” Skippy got up, mentally checking himself over. Other than a few possible bruises, he was fine. “There was no harm done.” Except that, for a few seconds, Billy Ray’s hard body had been pressed to his, and damn, the man was a furnace. Even now Skippy’s body tingled. He brushed imaginary dirt off his clothes and let Billy Ray return to work, then sat with the others.

“That was some roll in the hay. How did you manage that?” Jerry asked under his breath, and Skippy elbowed him in the side. Sometimes he was such a hound dog. “Owww.” Jerry rubbed his side and thankfully kept his mouth shut.

 

 

 

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Andrew grew up in western Michigan with a father who loved to tell stories and a mother who loved to read them. Since then he has lived throughout the country and traveled throughout the world. He has a master’s degree from the University of Wisconsin-Milwaukee and works in information systems for a large corporation.

Andrew’s hobbies include collecting antiques, gardening, and leaving his dirty dishes anywhere but in the sink (particularly when writing)  He considers himself blessed with an accepting family, fantastic friends, and the world’s most supportive and loving partner. Andrew currently lives in beautiful, historic Carlisle, Pennsylvania.

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Spotlight featuring Little Queen by A.C. Meloday w/a rafflecopter giveaway! @AuthorACMelody

Little Queen

by A. C. Melody

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GENRE: Erotic Paranormal Romance

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BLURB:

The bliss Reyna and Corbyn found in their unique Úlfr engagement is quickly forgotten as their ongoing conflict grows just as passionately as their hearts and desires. Reyna needs her independence and reassurance that their feelings are real. Corbyn needs to keep her safe, and for Reyna to accept him as her mate once and for all. If only their enemies would give them a moment to sort out their relationship woes, but it seems their only interest is to tear the new Wolf King and his would-be Queen apart. With the clock ticking toward inevitable war, Corbyn’s worst fears are realized when someone ups the ante, striking at his mate from the one place he never saw coming.

Frightened and angry, Corbyn rushes Reyna to the Elders, only to end up on their healing table next. After the back-to-back horrors, Reyna realizes she needs to make a crucial decision that will change their lives forever… and possibly save them. Fate decides to put that to the test immediately, drawing them right into enemy territory where Reyna will finally discover what’s become of Jesse and gets an unexpected audience with real Úlfrinn royalty.

Just when it seems they’ve found solid footing at last, their world is shaken in a horrific homecoming of bloodshed and betrayal. Their greatest fears can no longer be ignored, as they find themselves facing the evidence of their arrival… along with a living Nightmare. Can Corbyn trust his Little Queen to make the right decision for herself and their entire pack, or will he lose everything he’s ever loved in one fateful night?

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Excerpt One:

Eying the door nervously, she quickly used Corbyn’s toothbrush and mouthwash three times, before finally dragging her fingers through her curls and opening the door.

Corbyn filled the exit, causing her to jump. Happy for escape, the steam rolled over his body like a mystical molestation that had lust unfurling in her system, jealous of the wispy tendrils. Her gaze traced the tongue-tingling lines of his tattoos, the steel and sinew display of his muscles. The air thickened, her heart already beating too quickly from being startled. Corbyn advanced, and Reyna retreated into the steam. A flash of silver in his eyes stopped her, his nostrils flaring with an unspoken thrill. Oh, my. Heady desire had her mind swimming, a new fantasy born in her blood. What it would be like to be hunted by a man like him? To be caught?

“Reyna.” A quiet moan of entreaty edged with warning, his eyes widening as if she’d spoken aloud.

“I used your toothbrush,” she blurted, a self-defense quirk triggered by the increasing lust. “Three times.”

Corbyn stilled, before he groaned out a miserable laugh and shook his head. “I don’t know why that sounded so fucking naughty, but coming from you, I think anything pertaining to things being in your mouth multiple times should come with a damn advisory label.”

Reyna laughed, her cheeks burning red and Corbyn touched them softly, as if trying to feel her blush. His gaze outlined the shape of her mouth, and she suddenly felt something a lot deeper than mere lust trying to snake its way through her system to dig its roots into her heart.

“You stayed,” she whispered.

“I told you I would and I keep my word, Reyna,” he stated clearly, leaving no room for doubt. “Always.”

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A.C. Melody is a hybrid author of Erotic Romance and its many sub-genres, enjoying the evergreen life of the Pacific Northwest. Confessed javaholic, introverted geeky girl with a twisted sense of humor and a wretched muse. She has a weakness for hard ass Alphas and the strong women who capture their hearts, without damaging their rough edges.

A lifetime lover of Fairytales, Myths, Legends and ancient pantheons, she spends more time researching than writing. A.C.’s biggest goal is to provide new, captivating angles on old, favorite tales with very naughty twists and characters that redefine preset expectations.

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Hearthstone Alpha

by A.C. Melody

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GENRE: Paranormal Erotic Romance

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BLURB:

All Reyna Daniels wants is to secure her return home to Minneapolis. The last thing she needs is to find her world completely inundated by the magnetizing, hostile Corbyn Bruschard and his group of male-model friends.

Corbyn’s not ashamed at being everywhere, since it’s his territory, and he’s certainly not going to apologize for trying to keep Reyna safe. Especially when she’s his mate.

With all signs pointing to an old enemy’s return, Reyna’s going to have to suck it up and face her ancient Norse heritage fast. That doesn’t mean she has to accept being mated to an Alpha who threatens all of her hard-earned independence.

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Excerpt Two:

He visibly reined it back, calmed. “Why not just let him play hookey for the day?” He suggested, apology lacing a tone that still sounded very determined. “It’s only for a few hours, Serena.”

“Because, it’s routine, Corbyn,” Serena countered. “His father and I have already discussed it. I will be joining Justin at school today. Auntie Rey, too, if she wants.”

“Well, I was going to—” Reyna started, when Corbyn’s eyes flashed to hers.

“Go to school with your nephew,” he finished for her.

No apology this time, just straight up authority.

“Yay!” Justin clapped, jumping out of Reyna’s arms and taking off out of the room again, which forced Serena to follow, but not before she leveled Corbyn with a stern look.

In the silence that followed, Reyna couldn’t tamp her anger down no matter how hard she tried.

“I don’t like bullies,” she stated clearly, looking Corbyn dead in the eyes.

“And I don’t like having to bully,” he returned gently, sincerely. “But I will do whatever is necessary to keep everyone here safe. That includes you.”

Reyna eyed him, unable to find the voice of reason inside her that should have been asking why he found it was his place to protect anyone in that household, when that should be her brother’s job. She turned away from him and felt his strong fingers curl under hers again. It succeeded in stopping her, but she didn’t look back this time.

“You can’t make me the enemy already, Reyna,” Corbyn stated passionately. “I’m just getting started.”

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A.C. Melody lives in Washington State, is the proud mom of two amazing sons – okay, so  they’re typical boys and always keep her on her toes! Stemming from a family of artists and musicians, she thrives in all things creative and would call a day without her MP3 player and coffee a day of reckoning. When she’s not writing, reading, drawing or cheering on the sidelines at football games, A.C. Also enjoys gardening, which has honed her ability to dodge raindrops into an enviable skill.

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#Review of Lost Mate by Dirk Greyson w/a rafflecopter giveaway! @dirkgreyson

 

Title: Lost Mate
Author: Dirk Greyson
Series: Standalone
Genre: M/M, Paranormal Romance, Shifters

Release Date: May 1 2017
Edition/Formats Available In: eBook & Print
Blurb/Synopsis:
Wolf shifter Falco Gladstone knew Carter McCloud was his mate when they were in seventh grade, but school and the foster care system tore them apart. Years later, Falco is second in command of his Michigan pack, serving under an uncle who cares more about his own power than the welfare of their people. The alpha orders Falco to marry and produce offspring—but Falco’s already found his mate, and mates are forever.
Carter’s lonely life is turned upside down when he detects a familiar scent on the wind. The mates might have found each other, but their happily ever after is far from guaranteed. Falco’s commitment to Carter puts him at odds with his uncle’s plans, and when one of the alpha’s enforcers starts shadowing the couple, something must be done—something that will either cement their relationship or destroy it once and for all.

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“How was your day?” she asked, wiping her hands on her apron as she turned around. Then she frowned. “Hey, what’s wrong?” She could always read him. His dad and uncle said he needed to get better at hiding his feelings, but he suspected that no matter how good he got, his mother would always be able to tell. She pulled out the chair next to his and sat down. “Something’s changed.”

“I know.”

“I mean, you smell different, like….”

“I can feel my wolf, Mom. Just like that, he was there, and… I don’t understand.” His heart rate had returned to normal and the tingling had subsided, but the intense thoughts of Carter remained. He could almost still smell him.

“You’re young to discover your wolf, but it happens. You need to tell your father so he can help you through your first shift. You’ll be ready soon.” She smiled proudly.

“Mom,” Falco asked as a wave of uncertainty he rarely experienced washed over him. “Can I ask you… what does it feel like to find your mate?”

She chuckled, stood, and went to the stove. “Well, it’s like the world stops for a few seconds and there is nothing but her, or in my case, your father.” Her eyes turned wistful as she leaned against the counter. “Your mate will have the best scent, perfect for you—one you can never get enough of for the rest of your life. Everything will click, and you know there will be no one else for you as long as you live. That will be it. Your wolf will want no one else.” She sighed and turned back to the stove. “You have plenty of time for that later.”

Falco nodded, but he knew he’d already found him. A guy—his mate was another boy. He wasn’t sure how the pack would feel about that. Not that it mattered; he was only thirteen, and no one was going to believe him anyway. “Thanks, Mom.”

“Sure, sweetie. Go finish your homework so you can talk to your dad later.” She continued her work, humming softly to herself, and Falco went to his room. He meant to do his homework, but his thoughts wandered to Carter and refused to let go. He’d found his mate, at least he thought so, and now all he had to do was make sure.

Over the next week, Falco managed to run into Carter at school on a regular basis, and each time his wolf grew stronger and more insistent, not to mention the way his body reacted when he got near. God, it was like he was on fire. The more he was around Carter, the more he was convinced Carter was his mate.

It took almost two weeks for Falco to become sure that, at thirteen, he’d found his mate, something some wolves never do their entire lives. He was thrilled and vowed to spend more time with Carter, become his friend, and really get to know him better.

The following Monday, Carter wasn’t in school. Falco figured he was sick and looked for him each morning, but Carter never showed up in school again.

Two weeks. He’d met his mate, and two weeks later, he was gone.

So if anyone knows me, they know that I don’t read shifter books.  Throw in M/M and that’s another don’t read for me.  I don’t judge, I just have never found a M/M author that I truly have liked.  Don’t get me wrong, I’ve got recs out the ying yang for them and goodness, I’ve tried, really I have.  But then someone recommended Mr. Greyson and I’ve never looked back.  He is fast becoming an auto-buy author for me.  Yes, I know.  *shakes head*
 Again, back to the book.  This is such a sweet book between two people that found their mate when they were kids only to have them taken away.  I really felt for Falco in regards to this.  The above conversation with his mom is fresh, sweet and innocent.  Later when he finds Carter again, my heartbeat faster.  I loved his reaction to Carter at that moment.
Carter is only half wolf and it took some time for him to come around to figuring out that Falco is his mate for life.  I also liked that Falco waited for Carter.  Carter has had boyfriends before and his last one is a douche, so he isn’t that keen on the Alpha saying that they are mates
Throw in some truly believable secondary characters…Mildred and her kids and PC.  Pork Chop.  Love it.  And you have a great story about finding your one and only true mate.  Also, I actually kinda felt sorry for Willard in the end.  He justed wanted Claude in the end but Claude was too far gone in his hatred and power.
Do yourself a favor and pick up this book or anything that Mr. Greyson has written.  You will not be sorry.  Thanks Anna!
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